When I got married, I told myself that I was going to get a new job so I could have Sundays off to go to church with Rory. After the wedding, I had a difficult time actually making that decision because I loved my job. Even now, I think about the people I work with and the residents that I would not see anymore and I don't want to lose that. Why do I love my job so much? I love the relationship that I get to have with the 200 residents that live in my community. No, I couldn't say that I talk to them all the time and that I have a close relationship with every one of them. I can say that I remember nearly every ones' name. There are the handful of residents that have become like family to me. I love seeing them every day and love saying hello and being able to talk to them.
Over the last couple months, I have been job searching and have realized how much I don't like it. I don't really know where I want to go next. I don't particularly want to go back to a job like I had at Insight where I have to make phone calls all day long. I definitely don't want to go back to the retail industry. As much as I love cooking, baking, and pastry, I can't go back into a culinary field because it would not be a good move financially.
I had a job interview today for a Urology medical office as a front office personal. While I am looking for an administrative position, I don't think this would be the field I want to get into. One of the managers in the interview pointed out that my past 3 jobs have all been completely different and I am again jumping into something completely different. She is right in a way. The last 3 jobs I have had have all been in 3 different industries. The one thing they have in common is the sales and customer service aspect. For the most part, they have been much slower paced--outside of the holiday time at Helzberg. I have days where I am busy all day where I am now, and I love it when that happens because my day flies by. When I think about what I am looking for, I don't know what I want to do. I have had plenty of those wonderful life insurance companies calling me telling me how much they think that I would be a good fit for them because of my sales background but I definitely don't want to go there. I looked at Insight and even applied and interviewed for a position. I was relieved when I didn't get the job. Ultimately, I know I want to be able to stay home and take care of my children, but right now that really isn't possible. We only have the kids half the time and since Rory and I don't have our own children, staying home isn't necessary. I don't want to take any job that I am offered just so I don't have to work on Sunday. I want a job I will be happy at.
Quite some time ago, I had a conversation with a friend about life and school. He asked me what I wanted to do with my life. I had just finished culinary school or was close to finishing l (I can't remember which) and we were discussing what I was going to do when I was done with the degree. My plans were to go to ASU or BYU and get my nutrition degree and a business degree. We talked about what I wanted to do with the degree and then he asked me, "If you could do anything your wanted and money wasn't a factor, what would you want to do?" I knew the answer right away. I wanted to help people. Any and every degree I have thought about or looked at involved helping people in some way. I was a Music Therapy major at ASU. I think fondly back to the semesters when I had my clinical coursework and got to work with people using my music therapy. I remember thinking about going into counseling because I wanted to help people with their problems. I wanted to get my nutrition degree to help people get healthy and gain a better opinion of themselves. If money wasn't an issue, I would help people. So, why is it so hard for me to find a new job?
I guess in my mind, if I leave where I am at now, I should be going to a place where I feel that I can help people. I already feel that I am able to help people where I work now and make a difference the their lives. I know that the very definition of what my community does as a whole is help better the lives of our seniors to make their final years just as important as their younger years. I guess I feel that if I resort to my old sales job at Insight or working in a doctor's office as a front office personal, I am not really doing what I really want to with my life. I want to be that person someone else talks about when they say, "This person changed my life."
Why? I don't know. I think it's because there have been people out there that literally changed my life. It wasn't just one person, but an army of people that made me feel that I was important when I was feeling down about myself. So, I want to make sure I pass that onto someone else. I think I mentioned before that I have always been the person that my friends felt that they could confide in. They knew I wouldn't judge them our think less of them for any decision they made. I love people and truly believe that everyone is important and has a purpose in life. Every one deserves a chance to be loved and understood. So, who could I possibly work for that I can reach out to people and help them?
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